Presto Chango!

In regards to this business about the bipolar child/meds craziness, let me just say that superlagirl has been reading my mail! I couldn't have written a better post on what seem like my very own thoughts.

"You really want to improve the mental health of children? Stop demanding that they act like adults and stop driving their parents crazy"

Ha! Love it.
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Last post (was it just yesterday?) I was feeling like ripping my hair out from a few days of severe irritability. As we started out on the 2 hour journey for our overnight stay at friends, however, the strangest thing happened. We stopped by the Tim Horton's drivethrough for some doughnuts and coffee, and as I was about half done my coffee, and not even 20 minutes into the trip, I looked over at my hubby and said , 'This is it, I can feel the shift happening right now... you don't mind if I rearrange my purse do you?' And that was it. The billious bubble of bitchiness I couldn't seem to get out of just. simply. burst.

Was it the special blend of Timmy's coffee? The prospect of a visit with my dearest friend?, Some random shift in brain chemistry? Just what the heck WAS that? I've never had it happen so quickly and noticably before. I was so CONSCIOUS of the precise moment that particular cloud lifted. And it was actually quite exciting.

As was the remainder of the day which saw me escalating in mood higher and higher. Everything was amusing. I was witty, charming, CONFIDENT (something I struggle with oh so much), my kids and hers could do no wrong. What on earth had I been getting so bent out of shape about the last few days. Live, Love, Laugh!

And I think it would have lasted too, if I hadn't woken up with the stomach virus one of my friend's kids was getting over. So while I'm not back to the irritability that just passed, I'm subdued and feeling a need for space purely for physical reasons. Ah, so many factors come into play in this whole game of trying to figure out one's mind. It's fun trying though. Half of the time (haha, get it?)

And, related to nothing other than I wanted to mention this, I'll just say that I really loved P.J.'s latest post called 'Have You Ever?' And yes, P.J. that sounds very familiar. It's so hard to open up sometimes, and we just crave that encouragement, and also need to know that the person asking is really wanting to know the truthful answer. That we can trust them with those feelings we are longing to share. It's very lonely when I'm feeling that no one is truly interested. Thanks for mirroring mine and probably many others' feelings, and for sharing your heart. I think that's very comforting , just simply seeing your thoughts and feelings mirrored. It makes me feel much less alone.